Surprise...!!

Today is our class party day....which is the most memorable day for me and happy until tears out ! but why i feel not satisfy for that...especially the pig in our class who is the one that do not coorperate well in our class...call him to pay for the party he refuse to do so..! thats so irritating.....

on the half way of the party , i dunno why it was so sudden that i cannot mix well with my friends even with my brothers...thats rediculous. i just hope that this will not be our obstacles...

besides got some of the teachers who have the thick skin came in to our class and straight away eat our food....thats so irritating...

many of us almost reach our birthday , our classmate use this opportunityto celebrate with us...thats really surprise and my tears almost drop from my eyes...thats touching

my friends ang teachers , i love u all........!!

Is this called jealous ?

I always come out with the feeling which makes me feel not comfortable....sometimes i just want people to concern me but it is not gonna to be happen...peoples nowaday are not proactive and if u want something u must ask for it...if not people will not care about you....

sometimes i see someone with less topic and not making more friends , they will have better relationship with friends but how about someone who keen to makes friend but not having strong bond with friends...is this fair ?

i always come into my mind and think that maybe i not contribute enough in our friendship but what can i do... i have try a lot..try to makes our friendship more and more stable but it does not ! I dunno what to do .. thats why i go and sit other places in class...is to prove that without me they still can have a more happy life...

hypothesis is accepted !!

i am not an important person who only passing through friends life......what can i do....i was so scare...i do care about friends but it just not giving me confident to continue the relationship..!

What shall i do ? is it continue or stop it ?

please teach me !! i feel there are a lot of pressure on me...anyway friends do important to me !!

What can i do ?????