its hard to express my actually feeling here...
do you think that is we want something we must ask for it..? But my answer is NO ! undeniable some things we must do so but some are not...I am a person actually do not like to rely on other people , anything happen most of the time i will face it alone...when you call me go and ask for something or things that not deserve for me...i will not do so because it will disturb other people !!
this is what i think...everytime when i face something i will not grow and become stronger but weaker...i dunno why after any incident or events with other people i feel like the gap between larger and larger...although in other people mind it does not change but for me...it seems like everythings start to change....no more closed relationship but strange ??
my mom scold me...she says that why i so stupid..? actually i am not...everytime i make phone calls i do have my purpose ------> to maintain the relationship between each other but she say me waste money...what can i do ?? is this the end of our relationship ?? stop making phone calls ??
not only that...trust ?? all gone ?? even ppl say i jealous...i would have to admit..i am jealous!
peopl say i am selfish ? yea ...maybe i am really selfish !!!!!!!
but til the end ..i should blame myself for everything !!!!! not other people but ME >.<
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